For so long I've personalized everything. If you walk in a room upset I immediately think I did something. If you are whispering with someone nearby I immediately think it's about me. Some might say it's me being vain. But I think it's from years of being verbally beaten down.
It is very rare that someone has something nice to say to me. If I come up with an idea I'm told to "shut-up", "sit down", or "you don't know what you're talking about". So now, I'm sticking up for myself. I say what's on my mind.
I don't like hurting people, but why should others be allowed to say what they feel and I'm not?
What is funny is seeing everyone's reactions! They don't seem to like it too much! They still try to put my down or "put me in my place", but if that is what you want I don't need to be that involved in your life. I'm not cutting people out of my life, but I'm not going to cater to their "demands". They can find another punching bag. If they don't like it, well then stop talking to me. Then I'll know for sure it's because I did something.
