Prayer

Well things haven't gotten any better since the last time I blogged....I take that back. Things have been getting better, but not related to the "family incidents" mentioned earlier. I am off of school now for another 3 weeks and I am spending all my time with my fiancé, Adam. Which isn't that bad...for a while we weren't doing that good, but now we are getting back to "normal". If there is such a thing....I can only thank my family, who finally became positive influences in my life, if only for a short time. There is only one in particular who was, well to put it nicely, a jerk about the whole thing. And that person doesn't have the link to my blog, so I don't mind saying that......

But I have decided to fall back on my faith. I know that the only person who really reads my blog, might make fun of me, but I don't mind. All I do is talk about all of the things that I do with the Church. And other than going to Church on Sundays, Catechism class on Wednesdays, and not living with Adam anymore, I pretty much keep my faith to myself. I mainly do that for everyone around me who are uncomfortable, uneducated, or just thinks what I am doing is stupid.

Well I don't care anymore. As far as I am concerned, I don't have any positive influences in my life. I take that back, I have plenty of them, but I don't see them on a day-to-day basis. So if Church and faith are the only things that I have, then I don't care what other people say about it. I am slowly learning, barely at 25, that you can never please other people. They will always get mad, judge, criticize, and stop talking to you until you bend into what they want. So if I lose a few people through the years, then I will just have to think that I am better off.

So here it goes....I am saying a prayer in public: God grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, and Wisdom to know the difference.

Hopefully the next blog won't be so glum.......